There's always a lil truth behind every "just kidding"
a little knowledge behind every "i dunno"
a little emotion behind every "i dun care"
a little pain behind every "its ok"
and a lie behind every "i love you"

song of da day: Tonight Tonight - Hot Chelle Rae

my breathing gets harder as da day comes closer

i'll do a backstory. soon.

song of da day: Lighters - Bad Meets Evil feat Bruno Mars
p/s: i'm addicted to this song Stereo Hearts by Gym Class Heroes feat Adam Levine. heh. this song makes me smile n sad at the same tym. what the heck?

i'm a lil sad but it is a relief to reject the job offer at Starbucks Coffee =( and stay working at Golden Screen Cinemas instead. yes, urs truly is finally doing sth rather than jus eatsleepeatsleepeatsleep at home.

i cant work during night shift n go back at 1 am? hell to the naw. so, i hafta kiss goodbye to starbucks. well, urs truly is grounded. and i'm practically under my family's watch. it sucks i know, but i'm fine with it now. coz yah... its for my own good.

after the conference with my family which was hell on earth, i got some kind of curfew which i never really had. currently, my work at gsc ends at 6pm, so by 7 sth i hafta be home already or i'll get loads of questions when i reach home. thats y its like a big NO to Starbucks coz i need to be really flexible with the shift n stuff. unlike GSC, i can choose to work only during da day. so, yeah..

i've been dying to work at Starbucks since forever? yes. i wanted to work there after SPM but they're not hiring. n when i finally get the job now, i hafta let it go. sad... y do i wanna work at Starbucks again? coz i simply LOVE Starbucks, i LOVE coffee. n being a barista there is pretty cool ay? yeah..

the manager was really kind and friendly just now. she said, i can come back to her again for the job after my degree ke if i have long hols. but hmm.. i dun think so.  n i got discounts for my coffee. (credit to feeqa) n a very hawt barista (starstruck. haha!) made a special caramel latte for me. so nice of him. teehee. dun b jealous dear boyfie ^^

but whatever it is, gsc is good enuf already... looking at my condition. curfew n stuff. sigh... eventho starbucks obviously can pay more. like a lot more, i can simply watch movie every single day at gsc. oh, which i cant. grounded rmmber? still, i can get 2 free tickets every week. oh, which i cant use. grounded rmmber? -.- maybe i can sell it. HAHA. besides that, caramel popcorn everyday. to be honest, i can vomit already. i am never really a fan of popcorns. so yeah... *huge sigh*

p/s: i seriusly think my right foot is bigger than my left. my Crocs is hurting me!

pp/s: funny how ppl think i'm chinese, phillipines O.o, sabahan, sarawakian, african american O.O, eurasian wherever i go. is my face really that exotic? ppl seriusly hafta stop asking if i'm a mix or what. especially when they started to ask about my grandmother. worst, my greatgrandmother. wha? NO. I'M A PURE MALAY. FULLSTOP. no grandmother all okayh. n i cant undrstnd mandarin. so english plz. tq XD

song of da day: Jetlag - Simple Plan feat Natasha Bedingfield

I FREAKING LOVE THIS SONG!! WOOHOOO!!!!! ITS OWH SO HAWT!

feel free to click the pic 2 make it moveee

song of da day: Lose My Mind - The Wanted  ='( the song is jus awesome.

HAHAHA! I had a gud laugh XD

song of da day: Nobody's Perfect - Jessie J

sad.. i know.. HAHA XD

song of da day: Changes - Stars

twenty years from now, you will b more disappointed by the things you didnt do than by the ones you did do.
so throw off the bowliness.
sail away from safe harbor.
catch the trade winds in your sails.
explore dream...
and discover..

you should never regret of telling someone the truth.
i'm proud of what u did. =)
coz i know it took you loads of guts.

and thanx for being an awesome fren.

thanx for being there when i'm down

thanx for the Dutch lesson. eventho i suck baaad. like BIG TIME. i couldnt even do the rolling R but u still being so patient with me. and i still wrongly spelt goede nacht in our last conversation. but i know how to pronouns it ok! hehe

thanx for being such a great learner. but cant give u much credit on that since malay is sooooo easy! HAHA

thanx for hearing when i whine or crapping so much n i cant stop. yet u still say go on.

thanx for the webbie... for playing bass LIVE for me. haha. u're jus so good at it.

thanx for making me go "awwwhh" all the tym.

thanx for giving me ur champ. he's awesome!

and thanx. jus thank you so much hein.. =)

yours truly,
   Alice
            xoxo

i'm nice until u give me a reason not to be. its fairly predictable, no?

song of da day: Time To Love - T-Ara & Supernova (remix)
this song is the best kpop song eva. it have the most impact on me. i'll listen to this whenever i'm frustrated, sad, angry or happy even. and vice versa, i'll get all those emotions when i listen to this song. i kinda like the original version more.

so so so so i'm lost for words. what was i wanted to say? ok.. i am a lil tired n sleepy atm.. was trying to lose some weight just now. so yah..

i've been posting alot lately!! gawsh this is the 12th post for the month. wha? O.O haha. u might get tired of me posting already.

you wanna know y? coz i'm dying in boredom at HOME!

wanna hang out? HAHA. i'm broke! so i dun think so. since i am jus you know... staying at home... no school means no monthly allowance. and JOBLESS. i am so frigging lazy to look for a job okayh. i have issues where i feel shy to ask if they're hiring "hey, i'm looking for a job. any free vacancy?" pffft...
therefore.. there's only 1 thing to do. i need to ask money from my dear brothers n sisters. lalalala~

i still havent see the point of this post. -.-

anywhooooo... this is RANDOM! i hate one word text msges. what more, when someone replied "K"
what the...? can u plz at least show more appreciation to my bloody long text? >.>

so the next tym someone replied K, i'm goin to say this.
"K? K what? K the letter before L, the letter after J? Do you know that in JK, K stands for "Kidding". So your reply is "Kidding?" Or K as in Potassium? Do you need some Special K breakfast? K, as in I can K/O you? Can I knock you out and feed you to hungry sharks? Sharks has a K in it".

gawsh, i'm just plain weird tonyt... must b my hormone. owh well, there's one more thing that annoys me atm.
THE RADIO STATION SUCKS! sorry about the caps lock. it makes u scream in ur head, dun it? hehe =p

okay.. i have no idea what happened to good music nowadays? they play the same songs over n over again for an infinite number of times. and mainly all the "lets get wasted tonyt" songs. and the lyrics.. bloody repetitive. i mean, seriusly? i have no problem watsoeva with this kind of songs but it gets annoying coz its not even as good as last time. plus, they need to cut back some commercial okayh! in 1 hour, i can count the number of songs they played with mah fingers.

Alice, enuf with the whining will yah? KTHXBYE.

song of da day: That Should Be Me - Justin Bieber feat Rascal Flatts

i just think i need to ask you to listen to JB's gf song too. Who Says - Selena Gomez & The Scene
p/s: i love this this song but why... why.. it has to be Selena Gomez? yah. i dun like her! from what i know, she stole Nick Jonas away from Miley Cyrus. i love Miley Cyrus. Hannah Montana rocks! but not nemore since she acted like a Britney Spears wannabe. really? we dun need another Spears, do we?

ok where is this going? gawsh u really hafta STOP. -the end-

wait!!! be4 that. one last thought. you know when you walk into sth disgusting/creepy, you automatically turn into a KARATE CHOPPING NINJA! haha XD cool ay?

I AM =)

i love youu youu youu youuu!! =*

song of da day : We No Speak Americano - Yolanda Be Cool

helloIambetterthanyourexfresherthenyournext

HAHA! *wink*
song of da day: Never Gonna Leave This Bed - Maroon 5

God knows what he's doing..
and maybe He has a bigger plan for me than i had for myself =)

so jus keep holding on...

song of da day: Love - CN Blue

p/s: how can u resist the lead singer's cuteness! gawsh!
note for pika...
if u're reading this. i know u're gonna say.
"he's my burning! back off! look only at ur lovely!"

its not my fault lovely cant really be seen in this MV.
so... only for this MV.. i'm goin after ur burning. hehe..

If i go to a place where the sunshine hits,
and if i spread my hands.
will i be able to fly past the sky?
thats what i thought.

the wings that can make me fly away r still invisible.
maybe its because things arent that simple.

got my result 2day n gawsh i am feeling so sad atm.
i managed to put myself in the distinction range.
well, not good enuf!
i want to b a doctor.. n i hafta be in the high distinction

being a doctor. that's my dream since i was a lil kid.
what a big dream i happened to have.
but i always din put enough effort to reach for it.
and i am always not good enuf.
i keep being a disappointment. to my parents. to my family. to myself.

tears started to overflow..
so i asked, what went wrong?
i thot i'm gonna do great for sem 2.
i got full mark for my quizzes
i did well for my mid sem test.
i worked harder
i studied smarter and
i handled stuff better
but what went wrong?
what?

there's always a reason for whatever happened.
and i hold on to that
"but u cant give me that kind of statement to explain this result".
thats what my mum said.
and hell yeah she's right...
i'm sorry i cant give u better than this.
i'm sorry....

there's nth much i can do isnt there?
i am feeling so jealous of my frens that manage to go overseas to further their studies.
but thats ok.. i am goin overseas. in the future, for HOLIDAYS. not for study purpose!
well, thats just to console myself. and its not even really helping.

kak na... i know u're gonna read this.
plz dun ask me nething.
i am so scared i wont b able to explain nething.
i know exactly what u're gonna say
and i'm sorry...

so.. atm, i really dunno what to do..
what course am i gonna take?
i've narrowed my choices down to 4 courses
i dun like maths. not chemistry either.
i have passion for biology. thus, explained these choices of mine

1) Psychology
2) Biomedic
3) Microbiology
4) Gene Technology

i need to do more research on these 4 courses. omg.. i am feeling so down..
u know, it doesnt make sense to let go of the dreams you had for so long
but it also doesnt make sense to hold on when there's actlly nth there.

p/s: i still thank god for giving me a good result. =)

song of da day: Party Rock Anthem - LMFAO feat Lauren Bennett and GoonRock
feeling depressed? earphone in, volume up, ignore the world!

The feeling i get when he says i love you....
i get this big smile on my face...
my heart melts..

but sometimes those 3 words don't seem like enough for someone whose smile brightens my day.
whose touch can make me forget the rest of the world.
his voice in my head.. it keeps me sane..

he is the first thing i think of each morning when i rise.
he is the last thing i think of each night when i close my eyes.
he is in each thought i have.

song of da day: Just A Kiss - Lasy Antebellum

this is a short conversation between my elder sista, Azriana n my younger sista, Azmira

Azriana : what song r u listening to?
Azmira : Bust Your Windows by Jazmine Sullivan. check it out!
Azriana : pffft. this song is old...
Azmira : so? ur mum is old u still listen to her.
Azriana : =0 =/ -.-

THATS HILARIOUS!

and Azmira a.k.a Ya here, tend to use the beautiful F word very frequently. maybe it is sth cool nowadays cuz apparently, her circle of frens been using that word like nobody's business too. like in every sentence. -.- call me old fashioned, but i dun think thats really appropriate especially when she called me fucker. i mean, wha? O.O

Azmira : fucker, what r u doin?
Azliza : EXCUSE MOI???
*Azmira walks away*
seriusly. wth? u're only 14!!!

but she only dare to use that word in front of me. coz if she ever say the F word in front of nebodyelse in the house. the first thing my family goin to do is they're gonna incinerate her tounge.  and its not goin to b pretty.

song of da day: Dancing Tonight - Kat Deluna feat Fo Onassis

i love KAT DELUNA. all her songs make me wanna get up there,DANCE n forget the world. =)

p/s: i know she's goin to kill me when she reads this

well thats that.

moving on.. i went thru my old playlist in you tube. yeah.. really.. i have nth to do at home.. i start doing these kind of stuff. result: positive! dayumn! there are so many good music that i used to love n addicted to. its sad that i've totally forgotten all about it.

have i ever mention that i love Cascada, Muse and 30 Seconds to Mars? and oh, not to forget, Robyn and I Hate Kate?

these are some reeeaaallly good songs from my old playlist. and gawsh! each songs tell a story. when i listen to em again, memories of when i first listened to it, both fond or not came rushing in. like memories in high school, relationships, friendship, places, certain individuals. haha. its like reading a novel about ur own life. pretty cool ay? i shud really continue making playlist for future me. n that will b awesome!

here you go as promise.. ^^

Cascada - Shut Up, Everytime We Touch, Miracle, Evacuate the Dance Floor (TECHNO ROCKS!)

Muse - Shrinking Universe, Supermassive Blackhole, Time Is Running Out

30sTM - Beautiful Lie, The Kill

Robyn - Konichiwa Bitches, Handle Me, Bum Like You

I Hate Kate - Then You Kiss, Its Always Better

Demi Lovato - Catch Me, Until You're Mine

Rihanna - Cry

Keri Hilson - Knock You Down

One Republic feat Sara Bareilles - Come Home

I LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! LOVE! ALL THESE SONGS!!!!!

p/s: i'm too lazy to put link. so....feel free to search it in You Tube! ^^

song of da day: I'll Back Off So You Can Live Better - G. NA feat Doo Joon Hyung (BEAST)
and again, the song has got nth to do with the post. love you mummy!! XD

I want to be the girl he smiles at and turns to his frens and says.. "That's her" =)

song of da day: Best Love Song - T-Pain feat Chris Brown