responsibility. it is not as simple as it sounds i guess. responsibility of a father to his family. responsibility of parents to their kids. responsibility of daughter and son to their parents.

the third one that i mentioned intrigue me. yeah cuz i'm not a father nor am i a parent, yet.

i still remmber Mr. Rajan (my awesome high skool english teacher) once said "people nowadays seems to forget what they have to do for their parents. instead of giving money to their parents, they give loads of excuses. i have car to pay, household to buy, bla bla bla and the list goes on. but actually they dont realise that parents, giving money to their parents should be on top of the list". 

well thats not the exact word. it was 3-4 years back then? so forgive me. you know, mr. rajan is a guy with loads of interesting, funny and most of the time dirty jokes and stories. haha and he is also a guy with many words of wisdom. but that, those little speech of his that day, left me an impression. "damn!! you're f-ing right sir" - yeah sth like that. haha

you know, these days, salary of RM3000 a month wont be enuf. dunno in other areas but surely it is not enuf in KL. but u cant simply make that as an excuse for u to turn a blind eye when it comes to ur parents. how can you? when it is time for you to give back to your parents. yes, you might not have enuf money to pay this and that but cant you throw a decent 50 bucks??? when you can buy stuff to fulfill your wants?

sometimes, they dont ask money from you or even want your money, but it is simply an express of gratitude and you should do it even if they dont ask without even thinking or calculating. becoz they are your parents that raise you up till u manage to find money on ur own. dont think of it as a burden. think of it as helping or repaying them back for all the things they did for you. wouldnt the joy u brought them will be worth the money you gave? sure u can do so many other things to show that you actually care and love them. but if you're not staying under one roof with them, isnt it a lil hard? coz then you will come up with new excuses "oh i dont have the time", "i'm so bz w stuff"

well this is jus something that i feel like blogging about. n this will be a reminder for me when i have my own paycheck.

final exam ends and here i am at home bz gaining weight - coz i'm EATING NON STOP. actually i'm not here to rant. i'm here to blog about my family :)

*roll eyes* "oh how cliche" 

do i look like i care?? no. therefore i will still b blogging bout my family ^^

i can talk about em all day, but i'll keep it simple n brief this time.

i was born in a big family. n i'm glad i am. i have 6 siblings, n when they got married. i get in-laws, n when they got pregnant, i got niece n nephews *wink wink* so in total, 18 of us? more or less. haha.

n i love each and everyone of them dearly.

The kids: Ahmad Aiman Firdaus, Ahmad Aidil Asyraf, Muhammad Irfan, Alyaa Batrisyia n newborn Muhammad Imran.
i love kids, so dun blame me if i spoilt my niece n nephews. they're just so freaking adorable how can u not manjakan em. cmon, cut me some slack. n those lil things they did that jus made you go awhh.. like when alyaa greet me with a huge smile at the arriving hall and when she said said (cik alice cantik lah, mcm princess) kekeke and when she said (alaaa.. cik alice jgn la tido lagi..) and when she knock at my door to wake me up in the morning. or when aiman got back home from skool yesterday n saw me the 1st tym since i got back from sabah. he look at me w this huge smile on his face n with his arm open wide to hug me. or when irfan got so excited bcoz i'm goin to go to his house. my point is they're simply jus so frigging adorable.

alyaa getting ready for her kindergarten

my brothers n sisters are so awesome. n so are my in-laws. we'll all meet up once in a while n its havoc i tell you. havoc. n thats how we roll.

n my parents. from the bottom of my heart, i love em :) n whatever i did n whatever i'm doing, my studies n my achievements are all for em. the smile on their face when they're proud of me, i would work my ass off to be able to see those smiles again.

today is my dad's bday. so here i am doing a big shout out to him

HAPPY BDAY PAPA! :)

i love you. eventhough u always force me to drive ur manual car when u know i suck at driving manual.
i love you. eventhough u always made me cook twice bcoz u dont eat the first dish that i made.
i love you pa :)

we'll b celebrating on sunday n everyone will b there. totally cant wait!

song of da day: Beneath Your Beautiful - Labrinth & Emeli Sande

its been a rough week i can say. what do you think? 5 final papers in 3 days! the taste of hell on earth. *mentally n physically exhausted* i'm so exhausted i couldnt care less for the fifth paper. qua sera sera.

but now, i'm smiling becoz its all over and i managed to go thru that hellish period without any thoughts of trying to kill myself or to punch ne1 in the face. *wink* haha.

so now 2 papers left to go!

song of da day: Begin Again - Taylor Swift

i hate being in confusion.

the state that i'm in is really bothersome.

things are getting tougher.

i'm afraid i cant pull through.

we are never satisfied with what we have dont we?

always not enuf. always want more.

craving for perfection.

wanting to be the best, be on top.

alongside, there are distractions. distractions that keeps us from getting there and its a problem when u find that these distractions r so hard to be push aside.

and atm, i just have to rmmber what azriana said, "Whatever that MIGHT not be part of your future is NOT important now". 

yeah i'll hold on to that.


song of da day: Try - Pink